The Science of Lauralogy


this can’t be good
14.October.2008, 3:34 am
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My brother is being questioned in relation to a double homicide in our town. What?



and I say these things I’ll never do for you
13.October.2008, 6:17 am
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Fall break is right around the corner. Just make it to Thursday. That’s all. My birthday is on Saturday. My hopes aren’t up high, but I’m ready to face disappointment. Maybe I put too much into my birthday. I’ll never truly be satisfied, but I could learn to not be entirely heartbroken when my friends remind me they sort of suck in regards to these issues.

I’ve gotten really into Lambchop (again) as of late. On the plate for me has particularly been their debut album “I Hope You’re Sitting Down (Jack’s Tulips)”. While all of the album is amazingly great (and like everyone dies!), 3 songs stand out even more than the others.

“Breathe Deep”

If there was ever a song I would make into a movie, it is this song. Best suicide ever.

[[download "Breathe Deep"]]

“Cowboy on the Moon”

So pretty. Plain and simple.

[[download "Cowboy on the Moon"]]

“I Will Drive Slowly”

I counted your fingers, you still have 10. Your sweater was fuzzy against my skin. Amazing. Who’d think it was about a girl dying in a car wreck after her date with the singer… (sorry to spoil the end).

[[download "I Will Drive Slowly"]]

I think I need a cat.



I’d like to breakdown, but I can’t find the time
10.October.2008, 3:58 am
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I wish I had more to write, but I don’t. Simple enough. Things in my life are happening, it’s true; however, I am finding myself sort of at a loss for words as each new situation arises. There’s just not enough confusion, anger, apathy, sadness, joy, despair, irritation, et al to go around – I guess.

In other news, if I was going home for break like last year (when I saw DBT/Ryan Bingham in the best show ever), I would be spending my birthday seeing Cross Canadian Ragweed in concert in downtown Springfield, MO. Instead I’ll be doing lord knows what with some of my friends who are also completely tapped for ideas as well (sooo probably drinking in town, not much else); however, whatever we do – Hayes Carll plays Portland towards the end of that week and that’s something (a great something), so yeah. Even if the birthday’s lame (which I expect it will be, although knock on wood it won’t be)… That and hella cancelled shifts cleaning the SU (and a free Emerson week!). So word to the big bucks for cleaning up after messy Reedies (and taking a break from my awesome kids).

In other news: I painted my toes and my fingers a pretty pink. Maybe I’ll actually stop biting my nails this time around. But I guess it didn’t help.

[[download: Cross Canadian Ragweed - "Breakdown"]]



A Debate and a 40
3.October.2008, 4:54 am
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Thursday is the start of my weekend. At least at this point in my life it is. I’m sure that following fall break (in  what, 2 weeks? time flies.), my time will be eaten up by my thesis (word to Pizarnik and the person that commented about her. fyi, I love hearing from people who have not only heard of her, who have not only read her, but also feel passion for the works she created during her all-too brief career [i.e. this applies to no one, thesis advisor included, in my college’s Spanish department (qué lastima)). But for now, I revel with friends. I watch reruns of tv on dvd (cable coming this Monday!). I plan for the future (hello PCC! hello carpentry or baking or general womanry). And I watch debates in my school’s one lecture hall with some of America’s future leaders as we drink and shout and just generally enjoy the chance to be political with little to no actual effort involved.
That said, the moment Joe Biden teared up (sincerely? I think maybe so), was either the most brilliantly played out political move I’ve ever seen or the most genuinely human political moment of the election. Either way you go, he wins in my view. Even though I completely idenitfy with Sarah Palin’s manner of speaking.

Today I took a field study (i.e. field trip) with my K-1 kids on the Portland busses. It could lead to an I Saw U. We’ll see (in a week, I guess).



Take My Love With You
2.October.2008, 3:44 am
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Thesis topic done. (if for some stalker-like reason you want to read it, check it heeeere). Now just a few weeks, a few papers, a few books, and a shit-ton of work stands between me and fall break (better known as the week-long celebration of my favorite event of the year: MY BIRTHDAY! [send presents!]). But before that, I have one more concert to hit up.

Eli “Paperboy” Reed & the True Loves at Lola’s Room here in Portland. Nothing like a Wednesday night concert to ruin my academic week, but still. I’m becoming a big fan of his.

Eli “Paperboy” Reed – “It’s Easier”



Alejandra Pizarnik Thesis Proposal
2.October.2008, 3:39 am
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In 1962, ten years before she would take her own life, Argentine poet Alejandra Pizarnik published what many consider one of her finest works – Árbol de Diana. Within the context of this relatively short poem, a world of interpretation presents itself for the informed reader. For my thesis, I propose an in-depth study of Pizarnik’s poem as it relates to several key issues within the world of poetry. Specifically, I will focus on analyzing the poem first against a technical background and subsequently her use of symbolism amongst the cultural and personal background of the poet at the time of the poem’s publication. Finally, I propose developing a new translation of the poem followed by a detailed analysis that highlights the problematic nature of Pizarnik’s poetry within the context of a study focusing exclusively on her technical use of language.

The first portion of my thesis will involve a theoretical breakdown of the poetic self as it develops throughout the progression of Árbol de Diana. Within this work, Pizarnik, as the physical manifestation of the poet immediately separates this physical self from what becomes her literary poetic self. As the poem progresses, the poetic self is further split creating a version of the poem acting within the poem itself. It is at this point in Árbol de Diana that Pizarnik use of subject points to a deeper questioning of the traditional author-audience, author-work relationships.

Secondly, my thesis will study the cultural and personal space that Pizarnik’s work occupies. Written during an especially tumultuous time in Argentine history, Árbol de Diana exists within the framework of a period of intense questioning and reformulation not only of national identity, but personal identity as well. This unique period of dislocation and disaffection allowed the already isolated Pizarnik to further alienate herself from the literary world she was inherently involved with. Although publicly respected, and very nearly venerated, by her peers during her life, Pizarnik herself acknowledged the feeling that she did not fit comfortably within the context she wrote in, that she alone existed on the fringes of her specific literary framework. Pizarnik wrote of the frustration of existing as an outsider in the world of the masculine Latin American and Spanish worlds of literature. Using this expressed frustration and the repeated symbolism found within Árbol de Diana, my thesis will present an analysis of the poem against this framework of a changing and expanding society and the increasing personal discomfort experienced by the isolated poet who continued to exist on the fringe of her world.

For the final portion of my thesis, I would like to create a new translation of the poem. Upon completing and presenting this translation, I will to offer an analysis of the translation process. In this portion, I will examine some of the key issues a translator faces while working not only with poetry, but specifically with the poetry of the notoriously concise Pizarnik. Especially pertinent to the issue of translating Árbol de Diana is the issue I will address in the first portion of my thesis – that of the technical subject breakdown as the poem progresses. Within this issue, the question of gender proves especially difficult for the translator to reconcile.



Excused from School, to Fathom Hell
2.October.2008, 3:27 am
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I am a real senior now, I guess. And as a real senior, I have my first real thesis deadline in the next 12 hours. And as only the realest of real seniors roll, I am incredibly unprepared and facing failure already.

Guided By Voices – “Auditorium/Motor Away”

I feel like the tow truck kid.