Filed under: Life Goals, Other people, The New Deal | Tags: City Year, Miami, Stupid Boys
Week One of City Year Basic Training Academy (BTA) is over. The weekend would be ending its natural conclusion; however, for the second week in a row timing allows for an additional day to be mixed into what little is left of our free time here in Miami. After my last post, I feel the need to emphasize that I’m doing okay. I’m alright. Despite my little emotional setback, I don’t have anything to complain about. I’m still alive. I still have a house with good roommates. I still have friends and future friends. I’m still completely broke, but one day that won’t be such the case. (hopefully). I’m trying to eat and trying to sleep. Kinda failing at both, but I feel alright. I’m taking everything day by day. I’m rife with excitement for the potential City Year promises. On that note, a brief breakdown of this week in Laura’s City Year.
After eight hours of registration, my first day of City Year broke for a three-day weekend. When we recovened on the following Tuesday (Sept 1), the entire Corps was together for the first time. We were assigned into teams of approximately 8 Corps members and one senior Corps member who acted as our leader for the next week. My team called ourselves the “Team Na, Na, Na” (in the vien of Mr. Will Smith’s “Getting Jiggy With It” not Steams’ “Na Na Hey Hey Kiss Him Goodbye”). For the next week, whenever the Corps broke into smaller groups, be it for Physical Training (PT) or ice breakers or our service project, these were the kids I was paired with. We talked about our reasons for coming to City Year and our reasons for wanting to serve, our goals and our pasts. When I wasn’t paired with them, we sat through workshops and whole Corps ice breakers/games. I feel I’ve met every Corps member this week. I know most names and definitely all faces. Half of them have either rode in Tobey or hung out at my house. I’m amazed at how quickly I’ve left behind my slow-to-warm shell in favor of diving in head first. It helps, of course, that I’m living in the biggest CY house with a whole slew of extroverts.
On that note, a brief-ish overview of my housing situation. I’m living with 5 other Corps members. Aside from some loudness issues, we all mesh really well. I’m once again amazed at how quickly we’ve become an urban family. I’ve yet to have to leave the house in order to cool/have some quiet Laura time and I don’t imagine this will be an actual issue throughout the next 10 months. During our first Community Meeting at BTA, Tommy stood during the Appreciations section and told the whole Corps how much he appreciates living in our house and how he’s amazed at how well we as a whole, despite coming from literally every corner of America and every background possible have made our situation work. No other house seems to share the bond we’ve got going now. Not to mention, we’re clearly the most attractive house in all of the Corps. So that’s something, too. Although apparently that doesn’t mean the youngest Corps member wants me. But really, I think he’s fronting on that issue. We’ll see. While I was originally gonna request that he be my bus buddy for BTR, now I will not. Perhaps for the return trip, but I doubt it. I’m kinda (trying to be) over him. Once again though, we’ll see. He does have god awful taste in music, so that’s something to ease the transition.
Back to City Year, all the passion is contagious. With every moment that I’ve spent in BTA (and even PT, if you can believe it), I’ve grown more excited to actually get into the school, to step into my red jacket for the first time. I know that I’m going to be walking around from this year, a better person and at least one school in Miami will be better off for my service year. So woo, go me. And Basic Training Retreat is gonna rock.
It’s too early in the year to be offended this much. Tomorrow I’m gonna wake up, gonna reflect, gonna move along. Ain’t nothing to see her. No broken hearts (or even would be broken hearts), cause there was never any real potential to work off of anyways. But so it goes. Maybe tomorrow I’ll throw in a little music to make it a little better, but for now, I’m going to bed. I’m gonna try and forget I heard anything that was said to me, gonna try and pretend that nothing beyond me and IT exists, it’s just us—the future and the present of education, ain’t got nothing to deal with other people. Nothing at all. The end, goodnight.
Filed under: Bad Days
I’ve been in Miami for a week now. I’ve worked at City Year one day. I’ve spent almost $500 fixing Tobey the Topaz’s radiator and fan. I’ve been called out each time I’ve ventured beyond Sunset Drive for being a self-hating Hispanic (despite my clearly English/Irish name/Irish ancestry) because I refuse to speak Spanish. I’ve explained each time that I speak Spanish, but I prefer not to. Yes, sir, I understand everything you’re saying to me (I apparently know a surprisingly high level of automotive-related Spanish, go figure), but no, I will not respond in Spanish. I know it’s confusing, but no I don’t hate my ethnicity. I also got hit in the head with a palm tree, had the Cubans fixing Tobey make fun of me for having the best day ever. And now here I sit, roommates home, listening to the Replacements in the living room finally getting down to real work on the screenplay that will never really amount, although fingers crossed, it’s my goal to complete Prodigal Summer (no relation to Barbara Kingsolver, obv) by the end of the least prodigal year ever.
Filed under: Life Goals, Música, Stupid Boys, The New Deal, Trips | Tags: Compulsive Gamblers, Elliott Smith, Elvis, moving again, Nolan Strong, PRODIGAL DRUNK SUMMER
I’m packing everything up again. This time I’m moving to Florida. I don’t want to go, but I guess that means I’m doing something bigger than myself (ha). Actually, I just don’t think it would be in line with my eventual fate as a boring suburban mom if I didn’t do this. So while part of me (that really big part called the “brain” and “spirit”) wants to stay and be officially plan free for the first time ever in my life, the small section (called “sensibility” and “pragmatism”) is making me go. After all, I have no job here (after Oaks ends), no house (after my sublet ends), etc. In Miami, I have a job and a house. But I have friends and romantic prospects here. And bars I love and places I will miss. In Miami, I will be drinking in Applebee’s, by myself. I guess it had to happen though. The Prodigal Drunken Summer has to come to an end, otherwise it’s just alcoholism. Boom.
Some songs that fit the way I feel right now:
[download "Say Yes" by, yes, Elliott Smith, I guess you should go ahead and kill my sad sack self now....] oooh bonus!! (download “Alameda” by him, too)
[download the Compulsive Gamblers' cover of Nolan Strong & The Diablos' "Your Happiness"]
Ta Da! Now I’ve gotta go to the carnival.
I hate the world right now. Especially the male half of it. That is all. That and screw love/crushes. They aren’t worth the hassle. I’m going back to being numb now.
[download Liz Phair's "Fuck & Run", i.e. the anthem of my post-youth youngin days.]
Filed under: Música, The New Deal | Tags: carnie, Gin Blossoms, hot hot hot, PRODIGAL DRUNK SUMMER
It’s a freaking heatwave here in Portland. It peaked at 106 today and tomorrow’s even hotter. So of course I’m working at the carnival. And as God intended it, I’m drenching myself to the bone at every possible opportunity, be it via the mister, a wet rag, or soaking in the tossed ice water. Whatever way you have it, I’m doing all I can to stay cool. Which means, today at work I listened to the Smashing Pumpkins, REM, Soundgarden, and the Gin Blossoms. On the ride sound system. FYI, “Disarm” is not a family friendly song. Just saying.
Filed under: Música, The New Deal | Tags: beating the cystem, PRODIGAL DRUNK SUMMER, The Replacements
Moving to Miami in less than a month. Finally got the roommate situation all settled, now we just have to find a house. Appropriately enough, the end of the summer soundtrack remains in line with the start of the summer soundtrack, i.e. heavy on the JoBros, Replacements and anything to do with Greg Cartwright.
[download "Kiss Me on the Bus"]
Since my hospital debt got written off, everything looks better and everything feels better. Life is good right now.
Filed under: Life Goals, Stupid Boys | Tags: Old 97's, PRODIGAL DRUNK SUMMER, Replacements
Between the whiskey and the beer, between the carnival and the sleep, I’ve somehow zipped through most of my summer already. My last day at the carnival is August 18. I’m moving to Miami on the 20th. Where it all went, I really don’t know. I’ve kept up the bad boy decision making, revealing to not only the Movie Man, but myself just how great I am. I’ve stayed away from the potential good and stuck to Whiffies and the Ship. Routine trumps renovation.
And cue the end of the prodigal summer. Set to a soundtrack of The Replacements and the Old 97s, it’s been good. But I guess it’s gotta end.
(download The Replacements “Unsatisfied”)
(download The Old 97’s “Rollerskate Skinny”)
Filed under: Bad Days, Other people | Tags: 4th of July, carnie, etc, PRODIGAL DRUNK SUMMER
Happy day after the 4th y’all.
I survived a midnight closing of the carnival, a death defying hike through nature at 1am, and so much more. Here i sit, drinking what’s left of my Old Crow and lamenting the fact that “tomorrow” begins officially in less than 9 hours. God darn it. I’m working quickly towards not liking the carnival so much. Which makes me sad.
But schoolgirl crushes make me soooooo happy.
But, in conclusion, I think I’ve been feeling down because (maybe) we’re nearing the 1 year anniversary of Buck’s death, i.e. we’re knee-deep in that shittastic month between his multiple arrests and his eventual death, and that kinda sucks, a lot. And I kinda miss him, a lot. Being a member of the Dead Dad Club ain’t all it’s cracked up to be, obvtron.
Filed under: Life Goals, Música, Other people, The New Deal | Tags: carnie, JoBros, PRODIGAL DRUNK SUMMER
Still the world’s worst updater. Ever. But I’ve been busy. And drunk. So those are my excuses. What are your’s?
Oh, and I was busy crossing yet another goal off my Life Goal list. This past Saturday, I took a day off from the carnival and went to the Portland stop of the Jonas Brothers 2009 World Tour. And it was epic. The most epic spectacle I’ve ever been to. And I was the tallest person there! So double win! And triple win: drunk. But OMG JOBROS!!!! We then walked home, got Whiffies, overheard the cute Whiffies owner saying he was supposed to go see the JoBros (omg!) but then something… I didn’t hear that part. But I swear, I’m starting to think I should just marry him. And eat Whiffies all day, every day. And call it a life. All in all, JoBros=love. Trulymadlydeeply. Best $20 ever spent.
The carnival’s been good. I’m essentially Queen of Kiddieland, meaning by night’s end I’m just walking from ride to ride talking to all the carnies. It’s a blast. And I have a school girl crush on so many random carnies that I’m never really bored. Tomorrow I’ll be carnie-ing while Emmylou Harris performs in the park which is dope. On the 4th, I’ll be carnie-ing to the sounds of (probably) the Frog Hopper and fireworks until midnight. I’m psyched.
I shot down the Movie Man which was an epic milestone. All to the soundtrack of George Michael. Yet another win.
The End.